Twenty Twenty Shh…
2026: New year. Fireworks. Wishes. Beginnings, Goals. And a whole lotta pressure.
All I wanted was to sink in, to be alone, with the people closest to me. The itch to take a break from social media finally flourished. And if the last six months taught me anything, it’s that nothing really matters… Alexa, turn up the Lauryn Hill!.. Silence. ( oh, I don’t have a ‘lexa)
Something I’ve been reflecting on for a while is the presence I take up: on this earth, on the internet, in the therapy room, and with the people closest to me and most importantly the presence I want to take. For me, it comes down to intention, mercy, and care, not only to myself but to the those around me.
I’m suddenly finding myself with a lot more free time, whilst I would spend hours scrolling. My attention would’ve been scattered, pulled by noise, speed, and constant stimulation of fast brands, and empty entertainment! And while there is definitely good on social media, the doom scrolling affected the quality of my inner world, my ability to be with myself, and things I actually wanted and needed to do. What unsettled me most wasn’t the distraction, but how hard it felt to stop. Your girl needed a break. Some dictatorship over her own life.
When I told my friends and sisters I was stepping back from social media, they laughed and asked, “But how will we send you memes?” whilst I’ll miss the love language of sending memes and the lil funny ‘thought of you’ moments, this isn’t goodbye, it’s farewell, and maybe a return—to myself. WELCOME HOME SUMEYAAA!!! (I might be a little out of touch with the culture and trends for awhile.. so please bare with me)
and here we are, I’m starting this blog. This little newsletter space. An opportunity, to write, to reflect, to just be without all the pressure. I’m hoping to do this monthly, or fortnightly, lets see how it goes, no pressure right?
PS: I’m screaming. Me? A blog? What?! AHH!
I don’t know who will read this, but I hope to begin this journey with purpose: to connect, to share, and to sit with the slower questions.
Lately, I’ve been thinking about heart work—the gentle, ongoing act of getting to know your heart again, and again, and again. Who takes up space there? Is it broken, bruised, guarded? Or slowly softening?
Place your hand on your heart.
This heart of ours is a magnificent creation: the chest and all it holds, the layers, the entry points, the way it learns peace. And here, I mean both the physical heart and the spiritual one. How often do you pause to notice its shape? Its colours? Who sits closest to it? How it responds in both the “good” and the “bad,” how it feels around certain people, what it tightens around, what it opens towards? How do we protect this heart?
When was the last time you gave it some of your time?
My Pinterest designed vision board for the year ahead.
